I try... to do things right, to be a good person, etc etc etc.

But this lack of resiliency... feels terrible. I feel like my emotions get bounced around like a ping-pong ball based on anything happening around me. I already am pretty isolated (which actually helps - less likelihood of other peoples' drama affecting me!) but...

Today, I got beeped at for no reason in the grocery store parking lot. I got really, really upset. Then, instead of getting groceries, I left... came home... and cried.

This... doesn't seem normal.

I had another incident earlier this week, getting beeped at by someone behind me in a left turn lane. I was being cautious, because there was oncoming traffic and I didn't have the right of way. Why beep? If we wait, there will eventually be a green turn light... I'm not going to throw myself in front of traffic b/c you're beeping... it just makes me more stressed, upset, and freaked out.

I kind of hate the world right now.