The WISE and WONDERFUL Emily Fox Seaton has already gave you some WISE and WONDERFUL advice! I am TRULY, DEEPLY SORRY that you're HURTING AND STRUGGLING SO BADLY and that you're GOING THROUGH ALL OF THIS ALL AND ENTIRELY BY YOURSELF AND ALL AND ENTIRELY ON YOUR OWN! I TRULY, DEEPLY AM! I COMPLETELY understand what you mean! Just take things one step at the time. It's hard but it can be done. And yes, I'm with you about waiting before throwing yourself into the traffic. Driving carelessly can be REALLY, REALLY, REALLY, REALLY, REALLY DANGEROUS, VERY MUCH SO! So next time just don't worry about this kind of people! Your safety is MUCH, MUCH, MUCH, MUCH, MUCH MORE IMPORTANT! PLEASE STAY SAFE AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN! PLEASE ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT YOU ARE IMPORTANT, YOU MATTER, YOU'RE AWESOME, YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL, YOU'RE KIND, YOU'RE GENEROUS, YOU'RE SWEET, YOU'RE SMART, YOU'RE RESOURCEFUL, YOU'RE VERY MUCH LOVED, YOU'RE CARING, YOU'RE A DEAR, YOU'RE A DEEP THINKER, YOU'RE INTELLINGENT, YOU'RE WISE AND YOU'RE WONDERFUL! EVERYTHING OF WHAT I'VE JUST MENTIONED IS ALL ABSOLUTELY AND UNDENIABLY TRUE AND YOU KNOW THAT'S ALL ABSOLUTELY AND UNDENIABLY TRUE AS WELL EVEN IF IT'S DEEP DOWN INSIDE YOU! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN!Please feel free to PM me ANYTIME when you need it as I'll be here to listen without JUDGING! THAT'S A PROMISE! YOU CAN REST ASSURED OF THAT! I am SURE that plenty of others will also be glad to WONDERFULLY, BEAUTIFULLY, KINDLY, GENEROUSLY, DEEPLY, CARINGLY, SWEETLY AND WISELY help you as well! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @guilloche, your family, your friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! I am TRULY, DEEPLY SORRY that you're HURTING AND STRUGGLING SO BADLY and that you're GOING THROUGH ALL OF THIS ALL AND ENTIRELY BY YOURSELF AND ALL AND ENTIRELY ON YOUR OWN! I TRULY, REALLY AM! PLEASE NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER GIVE UP HOPE NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS! PLEASE REMEMBER THAT YOU ARE REALLY, REALLY, REALLY, REALLY, REALLY LOVED HERE! I PROMISE YOU THAT! THAT'S A PROMISE! YOU CAN REST ASSURED OF THAT!