Hello Jim: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to Psych Central. And thank you for sharing your experiences. I can certainly relate to quite a bit of what you wrote. And I'm quite certain if you continue posting your own threads, as well as replying to other members' posts, you'll find quite a few other members who will too.

One forum in particular, here on PC, that may be of interest to you would be the Psychiatric Medications forum. Here's a link:

https://psychcentralforums.com/psychiatric-medications/

Here's a link to an article, from Psych Central's archives, on the subject of ADHD & depression:

ADHD and Depression: Common Bedfellows

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.