@BirdDancer My dad called just a bit ago. He wanted to know how I was because he'd read my blog. I took DOWN the scary post about the intrusive thoughts days ago, so that's good. But he seemed good. Said he's been having trouble sleeping- that his doctor -(he doesnt have a pdoc)- prescribed "something in the Xanax family" but he didn't like it "so I flushed that ****". I have no idea why someone would prescribe xanax for sleep, but the alternative is that he's lying. Always the two sides: loving wonderful Dad who can do no wrong and the lying drunk dad. He did seem pretty with it today though so that's good.