So if you've seen my other posts here you know about the issues I've been having with my husband. He finally admitted to using cocaine, but only after I presented him with a drug test.

I had a feeling he had used. He told me that he had sold it for someone but didbt use it. So I asked if he took a test and he said yes. So I got a test and he must have not thought I'd actually get one because he got angry and then told me I was out of control. He did calm down and he told me he has done it quite a bit.

I left and have been staying at my parents house. I feel so broken. Because my brother has been fighting a heroin addiction, I've been doing a lot of research on drugs and been learning all I can about addiction. But I feel as though I have way more patience for my brother than my husband and I'm not sure why.

He says hes not addicted and I dont think it's been something that he does consistently but he has addictive behaviors.

I know the logical thing is to leave him. And i know a lot of people will tell me that's what I should do. But it's hard. Despite everything we do have good times and he has been there for me. And I'm afraid that leaving him will push him off the deep end and make his addiction worse. But I don't want to keep doing this. I'm so lost