Dear T. I want so much to get in contact, but I'm so hoping you make the first move and maybe check-in? Things aren't alright, haven't been since termination. The last couple of months I've been relentlessly ill and the recovery is slow and exhausting. I can't enjoy any physical activities, even sitting for any time is painful. My sleep pattern is really screwed up too. I can't concentrate our focus, short term memory is nearly non existent. I'm so tired in so many ways. What's not helping is my family are currently all tearing each other to shreds, and I can't help but feel partially responsible. I know on a cold intellectual level it's stupid, but the felt side of things is overruling that. Since I started sticking up for myself and setting boundaries, they all turned on each other instead. At least when I was the whipping boy there was some sort of shared goal / harmony, what ever you want to call it. Now its a mess and they keep trying to drag me back in or goad me into participating. It's all taking it's toll, please reach out. I want to but I'm not supposed to. At least on our break it was clear I had a life line. At termination this wasn't offered or mentioned and I was too upset to ask. There's more I want to say but on mobile don't get trigger warning tool.