Thanks. I know i am not the only one. I think i am about 8 years past burnt out. The "then what" is i only want to be alone. At this point i listen to podcasts, radio, or TV from the minute i wake up until the minute i lay down unless i am in a meeting. I never let myself alone with my thoughts. I bury myself in spreadsheets at work and have gone from 20 years ago being the overly cute, optomistic girl who was super social and organized every party to the crabby old lady in the office who will rip anyone a new one at a pin drop. 3-5 years to retirement. As for home, my husband was the typical self absorbed, high maintenance clueless male for years. He figured it out about 18 months ago and is now absolutely wonderful. I really appreciate how hard he worked to change but there is always this feeling just below the surface that if he ever regressed i am not prepared to hold everything together by myself ever again.
I really appreciaye this community. I don't feel like there is anywhere else i can be this honest. Thanks guys.