I hold hope that you and your daughter will reconnect one day. My mother and I were very close and she pushed me out of her life after she had a manic episode and an IP stay. It broke me and I struggled with it for years. I know she was in a lot of pain over it as well, but she did what she thought was best for her at the time. We very recently reconnected and we are finding our way back to being close again. Maybe the same will happen for you.

I'm so sorry you are going through this pain. I know how shattering it can be. My only advice is to fully grieve this loss and allow yourself to feel whatever comes up. Don't forget to hold gratitude for the relationships you have still and for the good times you shared with your daughter in the past. I wish you healing on all fronts.