Off hand, I am thinking your "confusion" as to whether or not the trigger is real or not is, perhaps, a part of the dissociation?


What happens when you think of it as real?


If, for instance, a hallucination set us off, would the hallucination be considered "real?" It was/is real enough to trigger us. Identifying the trigger is important, whether or not we can determine if the trigger is real. It really triggered us!


I am hoping you will be able to find a way out of the dissociation soon and can enJOY life.