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puzzclar · Oct 01, 2019, 07:06 PM

Can't I just be a kid for 5 minutes? Maybe that would end the confusion.

If I go to inpatient treatment, I could lose my job. but If I don't then who knows what will happen.

Possible trigger:

I want to die. I hate my situation. I should call but I'm not going to do the act. It's a desire. I just can't do this life....... I can't adult today. I have writing to do for class (I'm in grad school) Yet with all the stress of possibly losing my job if I have to have further treatment. IT makes me scared to call. I really should call but I'm not going to act on the thoughts. What's my intention?

I don't want to adult today. I don't want to write. I've had enough S***. and I normally don't swear. This all comes down to one phone call that I had today. I did call my T already and I know he is in session. I cant' bring myself to interrupt anyone else's time with T.

The post is on if I was a different gender/intersex. IT's a hard topic. and I can't' handle this topic. I have three to choose from and they're all just as bad.

How can I do this anymore????????????????????????????
am I pushing myself over the edge now?
I can't adult today, Why can't I call in and say.....