When you write powerful New year's letters to your treatment team and they aren't acknowledged. I communicate best through writing. Having those letters not acknowledged was very painful. I put into those letters a lot of myself, this year's highlights, and my gratitude for their care. Silence. I cried a lot this New Years. I think that's when you know you are too attached. When you cry through Rosh Hashanah because you didn't get a response to a letter. It's a wake-up call. Being bonded sucks.