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Originally Posted by Miss Laura
I'm the same my friends have all left me... I guess it's down to having bipolar I have always had trouble with relationships. Only ones I keep is with my family and that's cause they come back no matter what.
My friend didn't tell me she was pregnant until she was close to showing but told our mutual friend who we are close with. Then she didn't tell me when she gave birth. I found out 10 days later cause I texted her as she was 3 weeks over due and i hadn't heard a peep. Yet our mutual friend knew straight away and have seen the baby i haven't and he is 4 months old now.
My friend took me to see Kylie yet hasn't spoken to me in 3 months despite me emailing and texting her.
My other 2 friends are useless they don't care about me.
I feel so lonely no-one cares about me. But I put a front on just to keep myself above water.
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I can relate. I lost my so called friends a long time ago and just never wanted to really put myself out there again. At first it was devastating to me, then as time went on. I realized I had to really invest in myself and to get "well". Which, is a struggle sometimes. I am introverted and only associate with family and the people here on PC. Also my treatment team, if that counts. I found that I wasn't healthy enough to be influenced by other peoples choices and their lives. Instead, I have spent a lot of time reading, investing time in my son, my treatment, pills, and my family.
We only have the moment, that is all we can control. We cannot control other people or their choices and lifestyles. I am not sure that this will be this way forever, but I think it is grounding lifestyle. It's ok to not be ok. If time is what you need. I think that you should absolutely invest in yourself and your own wishes. Instead of those of other people.