I've been off meds for 8 months now. I've had 3 psychotic episodes I managed with kava and niacin. I had a short drinking spell. I had severe anxiety. Lots of dissociation. But I lost almost 70 lbs. I was almost 200 lbs. And 5'5" male. Now 134. Usually around 125. I took 20 mg of zyprexa until January 2019. Before that seroquel. I took 6 meds at once and decided I'm sick of the med merry go round. The thing is, I haven't been very depressed for the last 8 months. Just confused and living in lala land. In debating seeing a psychiatrist again. But I started taking vinpocetine 3 wks ago and feel very good. It's prescribed in many European countries for bipolar and epilepsy. I ordered it online 30mg 2x day. I feel great but today have gone on a cleaning frenzy. I haven't been on this forum in awhile. Just don't know if I'm getting back to hypo or recovering.