LOL! Yes, I am. Has anyone here ever noticed that the length of my posts are often longer than anyone else's here? I know it, and sometimes I realize that some people likely skim or even skip my posts. I do sometimes try to go back and edit stuff out, but that is occasionally painful for me to do, because sometimes doing so feels like I'm killing a little part of myself (see note at the bottom). My being able to type fast exacerbates that, too. I have often referred to my typing as "the dance of my fingers on my keyboard". I actually love to dance, and I love to talk. Communication is a form of relief or release for me. I wouldn't say it's like a "vomiting", because that sounds uncomfortable, but it is similar in that when I get it out and any mal feelings often are removed from me, I often feel better or even great. The feel itself of talking, writing, and dancing is marvelous. Practice mindfulness on this and feel of the tongue, fingers, body moving.

I'm pretty high energy and gabby, in general. I often repeat myself or tell the same stories multiple times -- even to myself. When I am some level of manic, pressured speech is almost always present. I can go on and on with my speech becoming disjointed flitting from topic to topic. An adrenaline builds. Adrenaline has it's own kind of pleasure, sometimes even when sparked by things that make me angry. Going back to the "dance" and repetition aspect, the whole rhythm of speech is satisfying for me. I find myself sometimes rhyming words, using similar numbers of syllables in sentences, repeating the same words or phrases over and over again. Sometimes, especially when some form of manic, I use verbal emphasis, word choices (even gibberish), and other language devices in an onomatopoeic way.

When I'm anxious, or if the person I'm talking to says little, I can really go to town with my rambling (story telling, complaints, reviews of things, humorous statements, etc.) If I'm alone and lonely, I definitely talk to myself - even out loud. It's not always even a language, but all kinds of noises, and again, often repeated. "Shkuba shkuba baa baa booo chicka chicka." Sometimes I even catch myself doing this in public. People stare or laugh. I just smile back and/or laugh.

It's not the case that I can never stay on topic. I can, especially if I really set my mind to do so, or edit my writing.

OK, so this post alone is long. I ask myself, "What should I cut out to shorten it?" Again, tough for me, but I know some could be cut.

Note: Though I definitely don't compare myself to any outstanding writers, it is a known fact that writers sometimes hate when editors cut some of their work. Many have heard of David Foster Wallace and his book "Infinite Jest". That book has over 1,000 pages. The editor cut out hundreds more pages before it was published. David Foster Wallace was not happy. He, coincidentally, had bipolar disorder, but anger about extreme editing is common for many writers.