thanx mckell

i know.. i feel like an idiot... because i do know

T says its the part of the cycle called the honeymoon period.. when everything seems like it could get better, i feel like working it out and H promises to be better. He means it too.. i know he does... and maybe if he had ever taken it seriously then he would have worked on the rage issues.

odd eh? im the one who got yelled at... im the one who struggled for a year to say i wanted to leave (AFTER knowing i should and WITH T's help)... and here i am, i am the one who agonizes over the choices he made or failed to make. He seems pretty happy most times when we do have contact.