I found that it was the relationship that saved me. I still have issues - we all do - and obviously some issues are much more horrendous than others - but the therapy relationship gives me something I had never experienced as a child which is a safe space in which I can be understood and accepted for who I am.

Initially, as a teenager, I didn't consciously choose therapy; I was drawn to it due to a massive gap in my life. Over time, I understood that it was the relationship that was healing me.

Obviously, there have been big problems and ruptures as therapists are only human too. And coming to terms with that has been part of my process, alongside coming t terms with my parents being only human with flaws and failings. Knowing I have a choice who I see and that any therapist can only be 'good enough' is also part of my healing process and it IS work in progress.

It sounds like you have not experienced that with a good T which is really hard and I'm sorry you haven't. I hope you can trust there are good ts out there who you can trust.