That I was primarily using therapy similarly to some old, repetitive patterns that were not constructive, more just hindered progress. And that subtly, but quite stubbornly, tried to push my therapy to follow and reinforce that pattern. I was not using it in a therapeutic and progressive way. When I'd fully realized this, I quit because it more just got in the way of growth rather than helping (it fed an old compulsion and stuckness). It became very clear that it was not therapy I needed to work on and resolve my issues. Since then (~2 years ago) everything in my life has become a lot better, including my mental stability and peace... because I finally truly dealt with the issues and try to maintain better habits and discipline. Achieving that could have never been done via talking and thinking - a tendency for being stuck in talking and thinking (and way too much useless analysis) was part of the primary issue, to begin with.