Feeling awful, not helped by coming to end of binge watching that show. I miss the characters. I wish I could be part of a loving family, especially yours. I hate the fact I have to pay to see you for a short period of time when family and friends see you when they want for free. It's just so unfair. I try to make my way in life drawing on my faith but I still have this deep need to belong to others and I just don't really. You're one of the very few people I have ever felt a deep connection with and yes I know it's the nature of therapy and all that, but personality wise we agree that we are similar. You are such a warm open person who feels deep love for others and I have wanted someone like that all my life. It's all stupid though isn't it because it's never going to be anything other than what it is and at the end of the day it's going to be me on my own.