I don’t really have close friends. I had one, but we haven’t taked for many months now.
But I have a conplex relationship with people around me. Because of depression I’ve developed an oversensitivity and empathy which means I can be very kind and understanding with others. On the other hand I can get very aggressive and thibk the wordt of people I don’t even know. This is mostly when I don’t feel well and just feel bad about myself. I don’t like that side of me. I inagibe everyone around me is just going through their lives without a care in the world compared to what I’m feeling. I know it’s not true, but it’s still there.
Maybe I’ve become more cynical. Like with my sister, who I don’t talk to because she never was there for me or showed any care when I was at my worst.