Not doing massively great but can fake it to get through the day. Been self harming a lot recently, crying a lot, thinking life would be better without me (then on the other hand I don't want to upset my family). My counsellor asked me to write Who I Am.... she was sad to hear how I view myself. She read me her list of how she see's me. It touched me but I'm not worthy of it.

Managing to do my routine through the days then I'm wrecked by 6pm. I vegetate on the sofa from 6-12am when I go to bed well sleep on the sofa as I'm still paranoid this has been an on going issue for me for 6 months now.

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I hurt myself on Thursday night so much it hurt like a beep. But I continued to do it. Wish I understood my emotions the way normal people did