Painfully numb today and for the past few days. It feels like I can't breathe. I see pdoc in 11 days but I don't think she can help. "Bugs" and voices are still an issue. I feel like saying **** it and hiding in a corner under blankets. I know I need to keep taking my medication or things will get worse but I hate this limbo spot. Non-functional feels "better" than this. I made worry stones with my son last night. He took one with him this morning. If I had to do it again I'd make 4 instead of 3 out of the 1 oz. I still need to put polish on it but it's fine for now.


I need to start coloring again. I don't want to but I need to keep myself busy. I just feel done. I don't want to talk (luckily no therapy for a little). I'm tired but can't sleep at night.