L,
I want to email you, but I've already emailed too much. I'm scared to talk to you next week. Using the word commitment is a big thing. I didn't even realize how big of thing I'm asking for. I still want an answer. It's going to be so hard if you say no. My heart already broke a little when you said you weren't answering the question in the email. But what if you say yes? You said you love me. You said you'll be sad when I leave you. You already said you won't abandon me or leave me in the context of individual sessions. But what I'm asking is so much bigger. I'm asking you to make a long term commitment.