I don't quite understand what is going on with me at the moment. I've been stressed and anxious lately and the stronger those feelings get, the more I feel the urge to hurt myself. The weird thing is, it's a physical urge. I can actually feel my wrist "tingle", like an itch that you desperately need to scratch.
Yesterday something happened that pushed me over the edge. I scratched my arms open with a sharp object until I felt calmer. I repeated the same thing today.
Now I don't know what to do because I know that it's not right but it feels too damn good to not do it. It's the first time in weeks that I've felt sort of calm.
Distractions don't work because I find it difficult to not do something that actually makes me feel ok for once.
I don't know what to do.