Hello,
I was just reading a few posts on this forum and noticed that you guys seem like a close nit group. That is really good. I am a newbie at this whole talking about emotions thing so I'm sorry ahead of time.
I already posted in the depressions group and found some really nice people that suggested posting in here. I have never ever told anyone that i cut myself before joining this site. Not online to strangers or to family or friends. I knew it was a problem when i started last year but I couldnt bring myself to telling anyone in fear that i would be rejected even more. I would just use cutting as a quick way to elliviate stress and self-hatred becuase I had no way of expressing that in anyother way. I tried talking with my best friend how I felt but she is more of the--'suck it up' type that feels that other people's lives are worse. I just internalized that and cut even more. I stopped during the summer when school was out becuase i had less stress but I have picked it up again and it is even worse. I do it more often and deeper than ever before. I keep telling myself that it isnt right but i just feel so much better afterwards. it isnt a good time for me right now and I'm affraid that if i take this one thing away i will do something worse....