I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. For me, the anxiety - bipolar agitation/anxiety - is the worst feeling I've ever known. That specific feeling is what keeps me med compliant.
I also understand about not trusting others because they worry and/or call you crazy. It's all difficult enough without being demeaned by people around you.
I haven't encountered you here on PC before...are you on meds and in mental health treatment?
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