To me... the experiences you describe sound similar to what many, if not most, individuals who self harm experience (including yours truly)... not that that's of any help. Here are links to 4 articles, from PC's archives, that talk about self-harm, why people do it & how it is treated:
Cutting and Self-Injury
The Psychology of Cutting: The reasoning behind self-mutilation
A Brief Guide to Self-Harm and Unhealed Childhood Trauma | The Psychology of Self
How to Stop Punishing Yourself
Best wishes...
__________________
"I may be older but I am not wise / I'm still a child's grown-up disguise / and I never can tell you what you want to know / You will find out as you go." (from: "A Nightengale's Lullaby" - Julie Last)
|