Have you tried journaling ?? I have a love hate relationship with it. I use to do it on my computer but I found I always went back to re read what I write a week ago or a month. So it kinda held me hostage, I mean why should be allowed to feel better , I’m useless I’m a burden. So...

I started writing and shredding the paper once I finished. Every single day I would write, it wasn’t all about how I was feeling , I’d write down what I cleaned or made for dinner or a tv show, some days I’d write an angry letter to myself. But I always destroyed it.

Things did start to improve, by committing to writing every single day whether it was feelings or not I was making myself a routine. The more routines we lay out for ourselves the more control we begin to feel subconsciously and it will begin chipping away at your feeling not worthy of happiness , love or being content.

We all have to start somewhere.. maybe try this exercise ? All it takes is a pen and a piece of paper