first i had panic attacks, depression, anxiety and i went to a family doctor and just ask for zoloft and started taking them. when i finally was able to see a psychiatrist to correct the dose or give me the correct meds that i needed, i was told that i had bipolar. i was still on zoloft but given abilify as well. the first person also would give me samples of other meds to help me sleep or relax or whatever. they got rid of her and i got another person. the panic attacks were all about gone and so i was taken off zoloft and put on wellbutrin plus the abilify. i never felt that i was feeling anything from those two drugs but the panic attacks were gone but so was the sexual drive and desire i once had. all the woman doctors that i had acted like they didnt care that this man couldnt get enough going to maintain an erection anymore or at least keep one going long. with taking the meds i got free of panic attacks and was able to leave my house and do things again in the world. it cleared up my thinking. the bad things i got was it took away the sex drive, i lost my girlfriend because it made me withdraw emotionlly and sexually. i gain at least 40 pounds or more without eating more. ive been off every drug for over a year but the panic attacks are back but not to the point of major attacks, i'm very depressed all the time, high levels of anxiety. i feel i need to get back on the meds but i don't want to gain the wait back again. the sex drive don't matter cause i don't have anyone that i need to sexually be there for. the anxiety is so bad that i can't go see the doctor cause i get sick and feel like puking so i cant sit there and tell him whats wrong. i start having attacks while waiting for him to see me. i need the pills to stop the atttacks so i can sit and talk to the doc but i cant sit and talk to the doc because of the attacks. all i need is something to take to control the attacks and the anxiety and then start seeing a therapist to deal with the other problems such as depression, life and death, break ups, and rage and anger. i need pills and someone to talk to, kinda like saying i need a strong drink and a bartender to listen to me %#@&#! and moan about my problems. any advice out there for me or med talk? i'm male, 36 but act like i'm in my twenties, single and suffer from all of the above every since i was a young kid minus the erection problems.