I AM TRULY, DEEPLY SORRY THAT YOU'RE GOING THROUGH ALL OF THIS ALL AND ENTIRELY BY YOURSELF AND ALL AND ENTIRELY ON YOUR OWN, @LilyMop, AND THAT YOU'RE HURTING AND STRUGGLING SO BADLY!! I TRULY, REALLY AM!! It's REALLY GOOD that you're trying to find a Counselor, @LilyMop!! PLEASE DO TRUST ME WHEN I SAY THAT!! Unfortunately I'm afraid I don't have a lot of advice myself to give to you! My advice would be to remind yourself what a BEAUTIFUL and WONDERFUL person you are, BECAUSE YES, YOU ARE! Perhaps you can keep a Journal and write some good things that have happened during your Day or some good Qualities that you can think of about YOURSELF! Other than that, please DEFINITELY reach out to a professional or to ANYONE in your Life who can help! Do you have the support of Family and Friends right now? ANYONE at all? In any case, you can count on us for Advice and Support! I PROMISE YOU THAT! THAT'S A PROMISE! YOU CAN REST ASSURED OF THAT! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME, ok? I am SURE plenty of others will be glad to listen to you as well! Sending Many Safe, Warm Hugs To BOTH You, @LilyMop, Your Family, Your Friends, Your Counselor And ALL Of Your Loved Ones! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING! I AM TRULY, DEEPLY SORRY FOR WHAT YOU'RE GOING THROUGH, @LilyMop, AND THAT YOU'RE HURTING AND STRUGGLING SO BADLY!! I TRULY, REALLY AM!! PLEASE NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER GIVE UP HOPE NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS!! I HOPE YOU'LL BE ABLE TO PROMISE US THAT AT LEAST!! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING!!