Needed to vent

2 years ago, I started an interview project as undergraduate research, which due to health issues I got a few extensions for. Last semester/year was very turbulent again, and at some point, due to major depression, I also stopped taking responsibility for keeping in touch with supervisors etc to update them on how I was doing.

Because of this lack of communication (and because it took so long overall), I just heard that I am no longer allowed to hand in this project, which could have compensated for me graduating relatively old (late twenties) from a bachelor's degree, because then at least, it would have said 'undergraduate research' on my transcript, also on a topic that is very dear to me.

Just needed to get this out, it got me thinking about my lack of social support system / lack (not complete lack of, but little contact) of contact with parents/sibling / my own chronic illness because of which I tend to isolate myself, reducing friend circle and support / and how if some of this had been different, maybe I would have talked more and somebody would have said something encouraging or something for me not to take it too seriously and to just hand in SOMEthing, so that I would have at least passed.

so

needed to get that out

trying not to be too pessimistic about what this is going to mean for my future (I already graduate in a field that has no jobs - so this made me even less optimistic about my career chances)

any words or thoughts are so appreciated