My therapist abused me when telling me that I had to see her four times a week, pay for it by cleaning rat droppings in her basement (since I could not afford all of it in cash), pay for it by also organizing her documents of other patient records, having me spend the night, having me get triggered purposely from movies she made me watch in her home so that she could trigger an alternate personality to come out, holding me like a mother would in her bedroom, telling me that I should be alone and only see her, breaking my confidence with her roommate, receiving death threats from her jealous roommate, and being told that she would change my diagnosis from DID to BPD to ruin my record if I ever "fired" her.

I was so scared that I asked her ro send me to the trauma treatment center. She did, but while there, I told the trauma treatment center and they helped me leave her. They also helped me file a complaint against her with the Board, especially since I had recorded voice mails comprising threats from her roommate. Although I do not have BPD, as I was thoroughly evaluated by the trauma treatment center, I felt horrible in hearing the way she talked about her other clients who had that diagnosis, and the ways un which she threatened me with it. I had never heard of that before. My therapist was so needy and dependent upon me because she wanted to be my surrogate mother since she was not able to have children, that I got scared of ever getting close to a therapist again. I was isolated and freaked, but I managed to move out of state. I was too afraid to go to the hearing against her because of her roommate's death threats. I was suffering from trauma and she retraumatized me!

Thankfully, I got better treatment later, but it has been over 10 years now and I am still afraid of therapy.

She no longer practices, so that is a relief.