It's been several days now that I've experienced heartburn and indigestion, and it seems to be worsening. I again took Nexium (been taking it daily for a while). I have also been chewing Alka Seltzers at night. Last night it was so bad that I ate a half of a sleeve of saltine crackers. I think that helped, but then I woke up at 1 am and was in a half awake state until 5 am. Then when I fell asleep fully I had terrible dreams. I'm not sure if the indigestion had anything to do with that, or if it is just stress. Frankly, I think stress is the major cause of all of this. Today and two other days, I took Ativan. That may be what I need, but I just hate taking a benzo!

There haven't been HUGE stressors, but even the little ones added up are getting to me. For example, I attempted to use my Food Saver vacuum sealer yesterday and found it is broken and likely needs to be replaced. Everything seems to be breaking or malfunctioning! I use that stupid vacuum sealer almost every day. I was just totally pissed when it didn't work.

I'll try to take the Ativan for a few days in a row along with the Nexium. I see my psychiatrist on Wednesday. If he has no advice, and the gastro intestinal distress continues, I'll maybe go to my GP. I hate that my volunteering has been on the same day as my last couple psychiatrist appointments. It's like I have to rush to see my psychiatrist after hours there and commuting. I love seeing my psychiatrist and it takes away some of the pleasure. I'll ask him to schedule upcoming appointments on Thursdays.

Today I have a lot of chores that should be done and should ideally go to the grocery store. I don't want to do them. I'm starting to struggle. At this moment, I am starting to cry. Everything is building up to overwhelming.

One of my fun pastimes is to submit recipes to contests and Taste Of Home website/magazine. I realized that Taste of Home published one of the recipes and never notified me. You'd think I should be happy, but it kind of saddened me because it was actually my husband's recipe and not mine. He barely knows how to cook or bake and they publish HIS recipe. I don't even care about the Czech Christmas cookie posts anymore.