Hello, all. I live within an entirely self-created and self-imposed daily structure that varies very, very little from day to day. I created this structure for a couple of reasons. One is, when I am trending depressive, which is common this time of year, I don't want to do anything. Left to my natural inclination, I would just lie around and do nothing until the end of time. Two is, I tend to just feel better with some kind of plan. Some kind of organization. And third, having this structure helps motivate me to accomplish things I otherwise might not want to tackle.

On the whole, I think this plan has helped achieve those goals. The most important things--taking my meds, exercising, and reaching out for support--get done every day without fail. For me, that is an accomplishment. The problem is, I have so little day-to-day variation in my schedule that there is never anything new to look forward to. I'm on a tight budget, so, for example, I want to go to the opera in early November. But it is quite expensive and budgeting for that is it own production for me. I would love to go to a couple of blazers (NBA) games this season but again, they are sorta out of my price range. Maybe if I plan way ahead I could do it once or twice.

I have few friends and virtually no family, so social things with other people are not really an option. I have been trying to think of how I can help myself with this overwhelming sense of sameness. Do I have too much structure in my life?