hi angel... i think most of us here have a hard time with emotions and stress... the only people who know that i do it are my t (therapist) and some online friends... i have cut most of my life... i started pretty young.... about 9 .... i went for many years without... so it is possible to break the cycle... it would be really good for you to find a t or another professional that can help you work through it... take gentle care ...lyn