Sorry Moxie I have not read up on it. My T has mostly coached tgrough what to say and do but there are millions of books and videos on parenting which I think is what your T has been suggesting. I am not trying to be rude or insensitive. I know it is hard but there are sources easily available. I have read some books on working with internal family systems whi h has given me some ideas. I take what I want and discard the rest.

Have you asked your T to try and coach you through to get started? I know it is not what you want to do. I hear the hostility every time you post about this topic. Maybe you are just not ready at thus time. I hope someday you can find the courage to give it an honest try so you can have a happier life. No one can force you though it has to come when you are ready because you will be the one who has to do the work. When you are ready you will be able to accept recommendations from your T and will actively seek out sources to help you.

Until then I wish you the best. I understand really, I have lived in depression and misery for 50 some years. I never thought I would say I am grateful that I almost died in a car accident, but it led me to a T that finally sees my problems and is helping me move slowly to a more normal life. I wush the same for you.