You know , the worst part is that to me, my whole world Is breaking down. Just ... devastated right now. I left work and didnt tell anyone. I'm not safe

But to you....its so insignificant . A mild annoyance, like swatting a fly out of your face .

You will never know the depths of my grief. My greif about YOU. About the last decade of therapy with YOU

well, is this finally it . You were so different 2 months ago. So compassionate and caring, you were THERE. Now ? It's a 180° turn again . I should have expected this. You turn from hot to cold so much

I am confused by this convoluted relationship.

I hope to have the strength to just not go back

I dont even want closure . Because I know this means nothing to you. That I'm just a desperate piece of **** , an annoying fly In your face.

God theres so many memories. What do I do with them all?....