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Old Oct 08, 2019, 02:35 PM
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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25 View Post
Yes I will have insurance I think, I just signed up through the healthcare.gov. As long as they accept my documents I will have it. I won’t go back on invega as it screwed up my hormones and caused me to gain 75lbs in a year. Stability is not worth gaining more weight. Especially since I might have diabetes already.

Today it was hard to get out of bed. But I did it. I didn’t think I could make it through work but I did. So small victories. The last thing I have to do today is take a shower before my appointments. Seems impossible but I’m going to try. I might end up just washing my hair. I did shower yesterday so it’s not an immediate need.

I’m not sure if I feel safe driving to my appointments today. I will be on the highway and it will be hard not to hurt myself. But there’s no one to watch my son if RS comes with me. He’d have to sit in the waiting room and entertain my son for twenty minutes at the pdoc and 45 minutes at my T. I don’t want to do that to him. He’ll do it if I ask him to because he’s so sweet but I don’t want to have to. It just might be safer if I don’t drive.

I asked RS if he’d miss me if I were gone. I knew he would say yes but I just needed to hear it. Manipulative, perhaps. I’m not sure. I didn’t mean to scare him. But I am feeling very low and the suicidal thoughts are looming. I know my family would be destroyed if I did it so I’m trying to combat them. I have t hurt myself yet so that’s good.
It would not be the worst thing in the world if RS and your son went with you and RS entertained your son during your appointments. I know it is not ideal, but nothing about this is ideal. When you are feeling so badly and the idea of harming yourself comes about while you are driving, it's best you do not drive.

Many occupy themselves with a book/magazine and/or some type of a device while waiting for a loved one during an appointment.

Please consider handling this in any way that is most safe for you and for your family. You have an obligation to be safe for yourself and for them.

I hope your appointments help you tremendously!
Please keep us posted!
Stay Safe!
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