s to those that need or want one.

Thanks Wild Coyote very wise words.
I struggled- but made it happen, it's difficult sometimes though. I am glad I didn't drive especially one or two days... I kept having issues with so many thoughts.

My friend says it's been about a month or *month and *a half that I've been off a bit again... I'm always like "it's been like two weeks.. right?" Time eludes me a lot... creeping into swings ((if that's what these are)) eludes me as well.

The brain mapping was a side mission, that I started in full-- then forgot for a second. It has been on the back burner, so to speak. I wanted to shop around after seeing the prices from one place... but also wanted to obtain information that would be needed in the mean time.

The therapist meeting last week,was on a separate mission -- I felt like I dearly needed to check in with someone, and I hope that I will be able to stick with this t ((because I tend to leave therapy for one reason or another)).

Had started to shop around for a therapist again, and had been looking at psychiatrists...

I had been in therapy earlier this year with another, and he mentioned something that made me feel he wasn't really listening to me... so I left his services. He also told me the first few meetings with him, that I had too many diagnosis from previous doctors and I probably wasn't any of them.

I don't mean to be difficult but... I am
And it seems the more I am on this crazy train- a lot is opinion and --in truth, it seems like therapy should be an individual connect and journey.
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I am back home today from the trip, had and am grateful for it.. even if I know I could had planned and done more if I hadn't been so stressed out.

The biggest thing was I wanted to see nature and did, so that's what counts
also I am very grateful that on a train ride we took, the lady let us change seats after the ride started because I felt so close to everyone that I needed space.

I probably drank too much on the trip, but it helped with taking an edge off.
Found out my fit bit will say I am sleeping when I am not ((I knew it could be off sometimes but we saw a movie while on the trip, it said I slept during the movie lol))... too bad on that bit it's ok.. I just have so much issues logging anything but have been trying better.

I've had some anxiety still like at the grocery store when we got back, .. some anxiety with thinking of work but it will be ok.. I remind myself I will probably enjoy to tell some about my trip