I saw my pdoc yesterday so spent today being tired. I did go back and forth to my mom's to work on supper and made cornbread to go with our soup beans but that's it. I love my pdoc but 5 plus hours of driving montly is hard. Last night I missed my exit and took another way home. It only added a few minutes but it wasn't good.


My pdoc is worried about my anxiety score going up the last few months. She offered to let me go back up to my former dose of klonopin but I really don't want to go backwards, especially since something stressful has entered my life and it may be a while before I can go down again. Ultimately we decided to try making 200/400 mg of PRN gabapentin to routine and I'll take it at supper time. I'm just waiting to get to a few free days to start that.


Otherwise things have just been calm and restful which is what I need after those visits. I ordered a winter coat that I badly needed. Last year I bought a winter coat but the zipper broke nearly immediately and I returned it but never found anything I liked to replace it. Hopefully this one will be good. My old one is many years old and doesn't fit well anymore along with looking ratty.


I'm beginning to be anxious about my colonoscopy/endoscopy. I am not worried about the procedures but that they may find something. I assume they suspect something or they wouldn't do the scopes. Or they suspect some parasite that will show up on biopsy? It's hard because a loved one has just been diagnosed with cancer and so I'm hyper-alert.


My mom made arrangements to go see my nieces Thursday and I've been ridiculously upset since I realized I have a vet appointment for my cat and Bible study that night and can't go. I miss my nieces. But there is a plan for them to be up next week I think.


I'm getting tired. I hope I sleep like I did last night--just one awake time and it was only 45 minutes or so.


Good night to all and sleep well to all who need it!