I have ALWAYS felt like a stranger since I can remember. That of course led to extreme bullying towards me, Hugh weight gains as a child and beyond. You feel just empty .. NOT EVEN SAD .. Just nothing at all. Had my first drink at 14 and never looked back. Stayed drunk most of life just feeling g nothing. I discovered BAD MDs with itchy pen fingers and started to journey through psych med world. At 59 finally tired of feeling HORRIBLE found the ba@@z to get off the meds and start REALLY HEALING being straightforward with my therapist and not afraid to be ready to expose what I know is hiding inside.