Visited family this past weekend and it was rough to see my grandmother so unhappy and feeling so miserable in the nursing home. Last night when I went to bed I just thought of her being alone in the nursing home and it made me cry. The trip itself took a lot out of me between the busy airports/flight anxiety, lack of sleep and running around, but I am glad I went. Now I am paying for it, though, and feeling very jittery, distracted, anxious, at work and having a lot of negative thoughts towards myself. I guess this is my new norm, any small thing will set me off and I'll feel terrible afterwards haha. Trying to stay positive anyways.
I am behind on everything, but hope everyone is doing well.