Hello,

I have this nagging feeling I cannot shake and do not yet understand.

The cause of this was the following:
I still regularly see an ex, because my husband is his best friend (yes, awkward situation, to clarify, there are no feelings for the ex, it wasn't a serious thing from either side). He proposed to his current girlfriend, so I told her congratulations and she said: 'it's a good thing, right?' I was caught off guard by her (from my perspective) strange reaction so I was like 'yes! Or at least I think so?' ( I didn't really get why she asked a question like that) She replied and said 'Yes ofcourse, unlike you and your husband'
Her reply made me cringe (my husband and I love eachother, but got married for financial reasons when buying a house).
I talked about it with my husband and we would both like to celebrate our 10th year anniversary in a more genuine fashion. Even so, the nagging feeling is still there. I don't know what my emotions are (still) trying to tell me.

Anyone has some insights to share? How would you feel and why (assuming you would have gotten yourself in such in awkward situation in the first place)