The balancing act for me is still going to couples counseling while knowing I'm one foot out the door. I've tried the things that are supposed to make us more connected and it's not working. I can't force myself to love someone like that. I'm trying to focus on being kind and just enjoy being around her. She's not a terrible person and is a good mom. I simply believe we have run our course. This is why it's hard.

I know that whatever happens , I have given it my best shot to change and see the change in the relationship.