Still contemplating those 30 pills from 6 years ago. The weather is the same- bright sunshine, 70 ish degrees, slight breeze... I'm not sad or upset. I just feel called to do this again. Maybe another day after my paperwork is turned in. This calling is very strong. Oh **** it. Maybe I should call the after hours people ..... So many pills, so many choices! Maybe Haldol, or benedryl, or just days worth! I have some kaluah white russian in the fridge....