I do things with intensity then become bored easily. I don't know the reason, and wonder, is it my illness? I played the violin for twenty years then quit because I felt unchallenged. Then, I went into healthcare but became sick but did this for about ten years then quit because I was awful at it. Now, I'm beginning to feel bored with my man at times but still like him. We have been communicating and seeing each other for two years. I like him but am worried that I might become bored and do at times. However, I really enjoy communicating and being with him so try to overcome my feelings of boredom with him. I feel happy and know I need some excitement at times. Thus, I try to write my penpals but they are becoming boring to me too now although I've been writing them for a month daily. Thus, is it my illness, I have Schizoaffective disorder, or is it my personality? I think it may be both a combination of apathy and anhedonia intermixed with hypomania? Do other people become bored too easily? I am trying to overcome this boredom issue but at the same time not become too stressed by too much excitement. I want to find a middle ground but wonder if I ever will in anything I do or pursue. I have a bit of hypomania which helps but at times is too much for me too. I like to do things and push myself at times, but when I don't want to do anything, I do nothing for awhile. Then, I repeat this cycle of being intense then being apathetic. If it is my illness, I can't help it except continue with my medication. If it is not and my personality, I will go to counseling or try to figure what I can do to cope with my cycle of ups and downs. Thank you for reading this, and for sharing your opinions/and or advice!