I can't stick to a routine. At best, I worked for four years straight then could not do it anymore because of my illness. I also don't like living alone where I was until last year. I like living with my family although there are more chores to do. I wish I could have a routine but know that it would become boring for me which comes from apathy. I think I can work again to some extent and will have to work after I leave here. However, it does not excite me. I am lethargic/tired too at times and I do push myself to do things but when I am apathetic it is very difficult to do anything. I think it is stemming from my illness and side effects of my medication. I will just have to grin and bear it, I guess. I am doing well but not so well that I can do a full-time job and undertake much stress. I will find some part-time jobs to do and focus on these. Until then, I will try to keep busy with my chores and studying. I don't want to spend my life on doing things I don't want to do either, such as meaningless jobs or jobs that are not fulfilling. I am blessed to have a family who is supportive of me. But, I can't depend on them permanently and will do my best to survive somehow. I am hoping that I will gain more stamina from walking. I will have to walk everywhere when I live where I was until last year.I will return there because my parents will live there too at times. I just have to ensure that I receive my shots monthly and not go without my medication. For me, being off medication is a nightmare! Everything else will fall into place if I put my mind to doing it when my mind is stable. I wish I could be self-sufficient one day but at my age, I know that I should just go with the flow. I feel blessed with what I have.I have a relatively stable mind now and good health. I just have this illness and no other comorbidity. I feel ok. I have a man friend who adores me. I also have a family who loves me. I am doing ok now and am rather spoiled to say that I am bored at times. I should say I am grateful for what I have and so be it. Thank you for your opinion because it made me realize that may be I have it too easy.