I'm feeling incredibly low. I know part of it is SAD again due to the weather, but also being physically worse which messes with my emotions. I just feel so empty, like my life is useless. I feel so lonely inside too. Im not sure if that will ever change. I can't imagine living with someone again after so long and I have no desire to find a relationship. I just miss you T, but don't feel able to text because the more vulnerable I feel, the harder it seems it is to make contact with you. I think I need to cry it all out but I wish I was with you.