Back in February I was told I am in full remission from my Bipolar Disorder. But I feel like maybe I am relapsing somewhat? It's hard to say.

It's hard when life is really hard. I've been hammered this year with so much crap, and loss. This has probably been the hardest year of my life in many years. So I don't know if I'm just having a hard time with everything going on, or if it's something chemical. I've been running and dealing with crises and problems and so much, non-stop, for months. I'm worn out and exhausted. I haven't been manic at all for years, but I feel like depression is knocking on the door. Or I'm just so battered from everything I've been dealing with and finding it hard to cope.

What I need is a legit vacation where I can rest and do absolutely nothing. I think I might start to feel better then. I'm getting back into a clinic, after moving for the second time this year. So hopefully I can work out answers, or adjust meds or do whatever you do. I'm also going to see a therapist next week. Here's to hoping it helps!