I just realized something. the disaster that was my session yesterday did do one thing. it solidified in my mind that I don't want to do this anymore. I agreed to come next week to talk about my pathetic email because I need to try to put some closure to the past 8 years. I want a freaking do-over of yesterday!! I have no desire whatever to do therapy about our relationship. No. I have spent enough money on this. 7 of the 8 years I have been paying out of pocket and that's a lot of money. I will come next week and seek closure but that is all. I wish you would get supervision for this. I really do.