Things have been out of control. Need to remember to control myself. I don’t really know how to deal with it except the usual issue, self injury. I think things have been really bad lately. I need to remember that I cannot pull it all off without some serious control. Ive been overemotional, made big mistakes, and feel disgusting about my overall self and have no idea what others see. Probably an unkempt angry person who is too arrogant for where they’re at. I don’t know what’s going on with my body, it’s never been great. I wish I were still prepubescent. I feel disgusting.